Savvify

The term “Blog” is quickly becoming a household term it seems. All over the globe there are normal, everyday people who regularly log onto their computers and enter their thoughts, doubts, and dreams onto their own personal webpage. The best part about this is that the writings are not censored, edited, or subjected to the scrutiny of others before they are placed on the World Wide Web. These shared insights are almost in their purest form, written directly from the mind to the screen.

The self-proclaimed “Blogosphere” is the collective community of Bloggers who freely share ideas to anyone who is willing to listen. This community has one rule and one rule alone it seems…everyone has the right to their opinion. This respect for others is wonderful and quite beneficial to all of us because it allows readers to view the perceptions of others with an open mind. Open-mindedness is the only requirement for true growth…so as a species, the blogosphere seems to be the ultimate answer to the stifling control and fear tactics of the outer world (society). If the “system” promotes servitude, the Blogosphere seems to promote personal freedom.

If you have never stumbled across my writings before I would like to take this opportunity to introduce myself. I am God. I am not a reflection of God, I am not a part of the mass consciousness, and I am certainly not the creation of God. I am God…with absolute freedom to choose what I believe, what I perceive, and what I create. I do not exist in Time, I exist in the Moment. I do not exist in the World, I exist in my reality (you might call it my mind…but that is just semantics). Because I am God I also have the ability to live many different realities at the same time…you could say an infinite amount of realities. I can believe I’m Human, A Catholic, A Good or Bad person, or even that I am a Canadian…all of these are just labels though so in choosing these beliefs I am really just choosing to limit myself. Why do I limit myself? To experience what it’s like to not be God. Of course, I’m always God, but I always have the ability to convince myself I’m not. If you’d like proof, look at your average “human being” who holds onto the belief that they are something…this belief is the same limitation. They are Me, and therefore only limited by their own choice.

Whether you are religious or not I’m sure that the above comment has either infuriated you or confused you. Good, that was my intention. In my experience it is not until you are faced with something absolutely unknown that you have the opportunity to choose…you can react, or you can accept a possibility. For now, let us just say that it is entirely possible that I’m God. Really, how would you know?

For you the only thing that has ever been real are the things you see and experience. You know the world is around you because you can see it, but if you weren’t here you have no idea if it would be. Yes, I know you assume it would be…but let go of that assumption for just a moment and let us explore another perception. What if reality exists completely and utterly for you? This might be a little hard to accept at first but, as God, you are creating everything you see, everything you experience, and everything you need to learn.

Most people would run from this possibility because it implies that you are responsible for both the good and bad things in your life. The only consolation I can offer here is that you have always made it through every ordeal and always will. Why? Because as far as you can tell you have always been here….the world started for you when you were born, and it will continue until you die. You are the creator and the created, all in one.

What does this have to do with Blogging? Everything. From the perspective of God, Blogging is the absolute closest that technology has come to “a collective consciousness”. This term is simple, it simply means that everyone shares the same consciousness. Thoughts, doubts, fears, etc…all of it is shared by everyone. The belief that we are all separate, of course, contradicts this idea…but aside from being afraid others know our dirty little secrets, what is so frightening about at least admitting the possibility is there? A quick example is our interaction with others…we feel “vibes”, we have insightful glimpses into other people perceptions, and we even believe in telepathy. All of this is happening all of the time, you are completely aware of everything…your only limitation is the labels you impose upon yourself.

You see, my anonymity here is quite a blessing. As far as you know, I have no body, no name, and no voice…you cannot prove that I exist other than knowing these words are in front of you. But who wrote them? If you are creating everything all the time, then these words are coming straight from you. I could claim to be another “person” with another life, but that really makes no difference because you are still aware of only yourself and the things you see. So, since you wrote this for yourself to read at this very moment, where does that leave you? With a choice…you can learn from yourself, or continue to hold onto the beliefs that make you feel secure. Are you willing to admit you’re God?

You do not have to answer this right now, or ever if that is your choice. My mission has not been to convert you, it has been to make you aware that everything you read, everything you hear, and everything you say are completely and utterly created by yourself…these are the lessons of living. This is where your purpose in life will be ultimately shown to you. And what is that purpose? Responsibility and experience.

So, once again, how can this new technology of Blogging be beneficial? It allows us to ignore the judgement of others long enough to write our thoughts. It allows us to talk to ourselves…after all, you’re the first one to read it, aren’t you? This communication with yourself is probably the most beneficial experience we could have on the Internet. I say this because it is very close to meditation…you are communicating with God (You).

The wonderful spin-off of this practice is that there are many other “You’s” who get to read this. These secret little messages from yourself are already in your reality…every book and song. The difference is that now you get to create them yourself…personally. My favourite example of this “secret self-communication” is the classic “Footsteps” poem. It is signed “anonymous”…if our names always change from life to life, this is the only true signature possible. After all, we are not our names, we are the thing that chooses to believe we are our names.

So, speaking to myself, what am I trying to say? I’m trying to encourage you to Be Like One God. I want you to BLOG. Why? Because I, in every form including yours, enjoy reading my own writing. I enjoy language and the written word as much as I enjoy my own thoughts, insights, and imagination. You’re enjoying this right now, otherwise you wouldn’t be reading it. There is also another benefit to Blogging….you can abandon the system, you can be free…as you are meant to be and want to be.

How is this possible in a world where money seems to be the means of survival? What about food and clothes and all our luxuries? Please remember that these are creation of your mind…the money will come if you can just let go of the belief it is outside of you. After all, as God you have the power to reward yourself or punish yourself…what are you doing right now? Are you helping yourself in other forms?

You might be asking “how can I help if I have no money?” Simple…do what you’re doing right now, but cherish the point of it. When you visit a Blog and truly appreciate the message you have shared with yourself, do yourself a favour and “click” on anything that would benefit the author. It doesn’t cost a cent, it takes little to no time, and best of all you are being your own instrument of reward. You, and only you, can take care of yourself…but you must take the first step. You, in order to reward yourself in this life, must reward yourself in others. This is the benefit of being God….you can bless the world if you choose, but you must believe you can do it first.

Do this, start a blog, sign up for something like Adsense, and then start talking to yourself. The reward is not the money, it is the opportunity to be free…free to speak, express yourself, and live however you like. Eventually, if I do this in all my forms, we will return to Eden. In accepting responsibility for “yourself” we will find the Heaven that was here all along.

“Love others as you would Love yourself” - Christ (a beautiful example of your potential to be God on earth)

Thank you for Being,

A Forgetful God

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(P.S. There are no links on this article that will make any money for me…my intention is not wealth, it is to remind myself that I’m free and I always will be. Thank you for listening)

The purpose of this article is to explore humanities collective belief in God. More importantly, it is to explore why and how these beliefs have been manipulated. Just to be clear, I am not going to accuse Religion, Politics, or Money for this manipulation. I cannot, even if I wanted to…the only responsible party is myself (you).

I have manipulated my own beliefs based on my idea of who and what I am. Sounds a little strange, doesn’t it? The truth is that we all do it, we have no choice. For every “thing” that we believe we are, there has to be an equal opposite “thing” we believe we’re not. This concept is called Duality, I’ve explained it in other writings. (see Duality and Creation). Now, how do we decide what we think we are and what we think we’re not? What is the foundation of these decisions?

In the perception of Duality we view things in one of two perspectives. Good or Bad is an example of this. So, in choosing our own “self-perception”, we are choosing the perception of Good or Bad (Painful or Pleasant). We do this because, like all creatures, we have a deep down need to be happy. Unfortunately, the most commonly travelled road to this idea of “happiness” is the practice of labelling and definition. There is security in these practices…or at least the illusion of it.

The one and only constant in the universe is “change”. It’s always happening, whether we like it or not. In fact, these are our choices…get used to it or be afraid of it. Don’t get me wrong, there are plenty of reasons to be afraid out there. Storms, Wars, Famine, Disease, Pain, Starvation, Poverty…all perceived to be negative things. The key here is “perceived”, these things are only negative because of our opinion of them.

Before you decide I’m cold and heartless, hear me out. When our perception of the world exists in Duality, we have no choice but to view things as Good or Bad. Remember, Creation and Duality are the same thing…without duality there would be no reality. But, before there was a reality, there was only one thing….that’s right, God!

In the beginning of this essay I mentioned that my ideas and perceptions of God are completely and utterly manipulated by my idea of myself. This is true for one reason and one reason alone…I have an idea of myself. Ideas, like all things, are creations of duality…you have good ideas or bad ideas. But, we’re not talking about ideas here…we’re talking about God. “God” does not exist in Duality (it can’t, it’s one thing), therefore any “idea” of God is biased an based on my own opinion.

This is the problem with having ideas, they are always based upon some deep down motive that we refuse to be aware of. For example, the believe that God is “Love” and “Good” and nothing else is entirely based upon my own need to feel better about myself. You might be wondering how, but think about it. The only reason I want to believe that the entity I claim devotion to is nothing but “Good” is because I myself need the reassurance that I, too, am Good. I am, once again, trying to convince myself I am “something” and not “something else”. Thus, suddenly God is no longer one thing…now there’s an equal opposite to believe in…The Devil.

The point is that God and The Devil are ideas…they are entirely based upon Duality. If God is simple Unity (being all things), then It is the Devil too. Do I want to admit that? Of course not, I fear the things the “Devil” represents to me.

It seems, that when it comes down to it, I want to have an idea of God…it protects me from facing my fears. But is there truly anything to fear?

The perception of “Unity” is not a new one, but definitely “the path less travelled”. This is true because of our devotion to Duality. We do not like the idea of ultimate responsibility. We don’t want to face our fears. To do this means to abandon our idea of who we are…if we abandon the idea we are left without a definition…we are left to the will of change. We must surrender. This, and nothing else, is true faith.

It seems that lately there has been quite a lot of controversy and disagreement about the history of Creation. This rivalry has been growing for years now, in communities (both religious and scientific), in our schools, and even in our “courts of law”. After such a long, enduring war of beliefs, one must ask the question: are they ever going to find a middle ground? Are these two views of the world so far apart that they can never meet? Perhaps those who argue are simply not willing to let them.

In my opinion, based on my own observations, I believe that both of these “theories” hold an element of truth but are, by themselves, incomplete. I will not say that either belief is “wrong”, but perhaps that willing lack of bias is the reason that these two seemingly separate perspectives fit so neatly together for me. To be quite honest, I believe the only reason that these two “theories” have never officially met in the middle is because of their followers’ blind devotion to being “right” and someone else being “wrong”. (See why do we need to limit God?)

I’m not going to go into great detail about the personal reasons for everyone’s choice and beliefs; I’ve mentioned them in other articles and will probably re-explore them in the future. I will, however, try to start at the beginning…literally. To do this I must make one thing perfectly clear….no matter what it is, a thought or idea, there are always two ways to look at anything. Duality is the basis of perception as much as it is the basis for our belief in “how this all started”. Knowing this, we must explore both perspectives and their root.

Creationism: The belief that all things were created by God, completely, at the Moment of Creation.

Evolutionism: The belief that all things were created over time, adapting based on the environment and the rules of “survival of the fittest”.

The key to both of these beliefs is actually in the definition. Creationists believe God is not subject to Time while Evolutionists believe that all things are subject to Time. These are the opposing perspectives…and they’re both based on the concept of “Time”.

Before continuing I would like to take a moment to expand on the “concept of Time”. I say “concept” because, as with our beliefs, there are two opposing perspectives…each one valid, each one a choice.

One perspective of Time is that it is Linear…meaning it started “sometime” (the beginning) and continues in a straight line to “some other time” (one would assume this means “the end”). This perspective is based on our observation of “cause and effect” and, of course, our idea of “memory” (more on this in future writings).

However, there is another perspective of time that is equally valid but rarely examined (except for the occasional spiritualist or Quantum Physicist). This perspective states that Time itself is an illusion, that only the current Moment exists. This perspective is also based on observation but has been unfortunately labelled “philosophy”.

In truth, one cannot prove either one of these perspectives to be true. You cannot prove that 5 minutes ago happened any more than 5 minutes from now will happen. You can try, many people have, but when it comes down to it you are always in the “here and now”. For example, when you started reading this article it was “here and now”, but you’ve moved forward it seems, you’ve progressed….and yet, you’re still “here and now”. I hope this makes sense because it is vital to the rest of this article.

So, the question remains, how can two opposing perspectives meet?

Easily if one can admit that they are both true as much as false. The single biggest cause of strife or separation is our need to be “correct”….this need is based on our own need to feel better about ourselves and, of course, to define ourselves. In fact, without this need, one can see that all perspectives of reality are equally valid. But what do we see?

In The Beginning

Both the scientific community and the religious community agree on one thing when it comes to creation. They agree that it started somewhere…whether you believe in the Big Bang or The Void (Genesis) the beginning is always “nothingness”.

The Big Bang

For the most part, scientists believe that all matter, broken down far enough, is the same thing…in fact, this thing is not measurable and beyond description. It is so infinitely small that one could actually say it is without size at all. This “energy” makes up everything, living or otherwise. This energy, in its original form, is the foundation of our material reality.

The Big Bang theory is simply an explanation of the “steps” this energy went through in becoming what we see it to be today.

(For a beautifully well designed chart of the Big Bang Process, visit www.crystalinks.com/bigbang.html)

Remembering the concept of “Time” it is easy to see how this theory came into being. One thing must follow another, and another, and so on…thus, the Big Bang Theory. This theory still states that the “Beginning” is indescribable…in essence, before there was something, there was nothing. That nothingness “evolved” and “expanded” into different variations of itself and, over “Time” formed the Universe. Makes sense, right? Let’s move on.

The Void (Genesis)

Creation theory is much simpler to explain, and at the same time much more complicated because it delves into “the mind of God”. To put it plainly, creation theory is the belief that all things were created by God at the Beginning. Genesis states that in the Beginning there was “The Void” and “God was the Void and the Void was God”.

If you’ll notice, this theory still believes in that “nothingness” previously described…the only difference here is that “nothingness” had a consciousness. It was Aware. So, “nothingness” and “God” are actually the same thing…quite literally, everything (remember, first there was only the Void).

Now, following this logic, nothingness became reality. Genesis describes this as a “Seven Day” process, but remember that “nothingness” has no Time so a “Day” means absolutely nothing. Keeping this in mind, we see that Genesis is not very different from the above image of the Big Bang…it is a list of steps for the creation of the universe.

But, does God need “Time” if it is everything? Further exploration is necessary.

Duality and Unity

This is going to be the most difficult part of this essay so I ask for your patience and an open-mind. For just a quick moment let’s discuss the nature of Reality. After all, whether it is Creationism or Evolutionism the real focus here is the observation of the reality we all experience…right? Right. So, throwing our need to be correct aside, let’s actually look at reality without bias or assumption.

Reality (the world and our mind) is a complex mixture of equal and opposite perceptions. To put it simply, everything exists in a state of Duality. For Hot you have Cold, Light/Dark, Hard/Soft, Pleasure/Pain, Faith/Fear, etc…this state is constant, without it there would be no experience and no reality. How could you experience Hot if the experience of Cold didn’t exist?

The tricky part about understanding the “Beginning” is that this concept does not fall into Duality. What I mean here is that The Void is one thing. This nothingness is still something, but there is only one of it. One thing does not have Duality…it is simple Unity.

This is the biggest stumbling block in our understanding of God, Reality, or Creation. We cannot grasp how One Thing (nothing) became so many variations of itself…how did Duality come into being?

There is only one answer to this, and it lies in your existence. One thing cannot be two things, but it can be perceived as two things. Unfortunately, for that to be true there must be a perceiver…that’s you. But who was the perceiver in the Void?

God and Us

 

Let’s assume, for the moment, that this “nothingness” I have been referring to was actually conscious. Now, as one thing, this consciousness would only be aware of itself. It would not be aware of anything else or the possibility of anything else because it is everything…there is no space or time, there is simply nothingness and the awareness of its existence as that nothingness. This is Unity. But, to experience anything, Duality must exist…and so that consciousness had to perceive itself to be two things. For the first time, the Void was perceived (very important) as separate. There was now a Perceiver and a Perceived.

Before I continue, I would like to point out something very important about this consciousness. Our understanding of this consciousness is entirely dependant upon our own beliefs and limitations. We are talking about “nothingness”…infinitely adaptable (it can be and is the foundation of everything), eternally present (how can something that is everything ever die?), and completely and utterly free (there are no rules to follow). Knowing this, a possibility opens to us. What would you do if you were God? Quite simply…you would do everything.

Everything covers a lot of things, I cannot begin to cover them all, but for the purposes of this exercise let us say that “God” wanted to experience. The perceiver wanted to perceive every possible variation of itself…with Eternity to play with, wouldn’t you? Remember that this “consciousness” can never truly die, it has nothing to fear and nothing to lose…it is everything and always will be. And so, it has no bias…Good or Bad, experience is the only goal.

I realize that I keep stating this, but it is really very important to grasp this concept of “being everything”. I’ll use an example just to be clear…

Currently, you have a countless number of possibilities that can move in and out of your mind. You can imagine purple skies, chocolate cars, and even entire experiences that you are not currently experiencing…we call this imagination, but to a consciousness that is everything there is no such thing as imagination. The mind of God is The Void; therefore any possibility that enters the mind of God is made real because it is within the Void (the building blocks of everything). Think about this, to a mind with no limitation, how many possibilities could exist? An infinite amount…quite literally, anything that could exist does exist because all that is real is within the Void (there is nothing else, remember?).

Now, doing everything doesn’t just imply “playing basketball” or “fishing”…these are actions and not complete “experiences”. A complete experience is not just the action but also the state of mind of the perceiver. This state of mind includes belief, thoughts, doubts, memories, imagination, and even self-imposed limitations. What am I saying? I’m saying that God, in wanting to do everything, wanted to experience every possible variation of self-awareness. There are 2 extremes here and an infinite amount of variations in between.

Basically, “God” not only wanted to experience being everything, it very much wanted to experience what it would be like to “not be everything”. It wanted to experience what it would be like to be complete unaware of its own divinity.

Now, of course, God will always be God (everything cannot stop being everything), but because it perceives itself to be separate from the Void it can absolutely convince itself that it is something else. This is the freedom of an unlimited consciousness…it can believe whatever it likes.

The Moment and Time

            This is the final step in our exploration of Creationism and Evolutionism because this is where they meet. They meet in the concept of Time, remember? First, let’s look at The Moment.

In The Void (or the Beginning) there is no time. Eternity and a single Moment are the same thing. When Duality was created there was a mass explosion of possible Moments that entered the mind of God (we call this Reality or the Universe). All of these Moments, of course, are still within the Void and therefore exist in the same “place or time”. Hard to grasp? It should be.

Now, remembering that Time does not exist in Unity, we must explore Duality to find it. The perceiver (God convinced it is separate from itself) exists in Duality, and because of that it can experience. But the very concept of experience is based on a series of Moments happening one after another…so Time must be perceived.

The most unbelievable part about this is that, in an infinite amount of possible moments, there is an order to it. There appears to be a story to each of our lives. I mean, with all things existing at once, it is completely possible (to God, all things are) that a Dinosaur could fall out of your fridge at any time…but that doesn’t happen, does it? Out of all the seemingly chaotic events in each of our lives there is also an order. Why? Because “experience” is a broad topic…not only does God want to experience each state of mind, it wants to experience every possible series of experiences as well. Basically, it wanted to be you and everyone else. And here you are, thinking it took you time to read this article, but in reality you’ve never left the Void.

In conclusion, yes the universe was created in steps. Each variation of “nothingness” expanding into another variation of that same nothingness (see the Big Bang image above), but if God (everything) never left the Void, then those steps are only perceived to be separate from each other when, in fact, they all exist at once.

So who is actually correct…The Creationists or the Evolutionists?

Both, they are all the same Perceiver wanting to experience a different perception and state of mind. God wanted to experience everything, even disagreeing with itself.

I really find it funny (and honestly down right ignorant) that our nations hold onto the idea that we must fight for our freedom. This is the most contradicting belief I have ever come across! Now, I realize that this is a contradiction that I have created (to understand anything I must take responsibility), so lets discuss this….

How do our nations find peace if we are fighting?

How do we join hands with our brothers and sisters in unity if we keep getting up in arms (literally)?

The only way to peace, harmony and freedom is through PEACE, HARMONY AND FREEDOM. It is not achieved by going and shooting people. This is the simplest reasoning I am aware of, but apparently there is a part of me that refuses to see this because there is a part of me that continues to fight for my peace….which, by the way, is impossible. As long as I am in conflict with myself, I am not finding my peace within. By finding peace with myself and who I have always been (The One), I realize that nothing has or ever will be separate from Me (unless of course I willing choose to see the perspective that I am separate from the world)). If we really want to get down to it, it is the fear of ourselves that cause us to fear others (and thus go to war). We can justify all we like, saying that “Well, those people are terrorists and must be wiped out). Go ahead and say all you like about these so-called “bad-people”, but when it comes down to it, I AM everything and I AM those “other people”. If I have an issue with anything (lets say people I’ve labelled “terrorists”), I really have an issue with a part of me that I refuse to accept. That issue can only be resolved by Me and Me alone. Going to war is only keeping me in denial. If I am fighting the so-called terrorists, I have become the terrorist myself and therefore I have become the very thing I have an issue with (which doesn’t make much sense if what I really want is peace). If I want to stop the terrorists, I have to stop being the terrorist. If what I really want to achieve is peace, then I have to BE PEACEFUL.

When nations fight, we are not at peace; we are at war. Instead of remembering the bloody wars we have endured on Remembrance Day, why don’t we do our forefathers a favour and start remembering the peace that they were attempting to achieve? Why don’t we find that peace in our hearts and start acting like the truly grateful and giving creatures we have always been? I think this is what they would want us to do. If anything, most of them had to learn the hard way that you cannot fight for freedom; freedom comes from within and must be shown in everything we do together. We are all One, and we can act like it too. Join hands with your brothers and sisters today and everyday and remember the beautiful peace you have always had together…..that is true remembrance.

Before I begin this piece I would like to make something perfectly clear to you, the reader. If you believe that your Religion is the one true path to God, you are not going to like what I have to say. I am going to offend you and you are going to try very hard to forget that you have ever come across this essay. I am not going to lie to you, and that in itself should be a shocking change from the institution you follow so blindly.

This is not an attack upon organized religion; this is an exploration of its purpose. By definition, Religion is an institution organized to express belief in God. These institutions offer a community of like-minded people with like-minded beliefs. The beliefs themselves come from the “Holy Book” of that institution. There are several in the world, each one the focus of a different religion. The Bible (New and Old), The Toran, The Qu’ran, The Dhammapaddha, and the Tao Te Ching are just a few.

At first glance, the idea of organized religion makes sense. If we’re supposed to worship God, why not do it in groups? In fact, because people take this so seriously, a certain amount of ceremony should be involved as well….after all, this is God we’re talking about. Hats, Robes, Candles, possibly a Bell…all props to make the routine of worship seem as important and powerful as possible. But what does this have to do with God?

The strangest part of organized religion seems to be their willing misinterpretation of the Books they worship. Many “religious enthusiasts” can quote chapter and verse, but quoting something doesn’t mean you understand it. The majority of “Holy Books” out there are based upon the words and actions of a single figure. Buddha, Mohammed, Christ, Lao Tzu, etc…all of these people were regarded as “close to God”, and so their story was recorded and told to others. This telling is what formed Religion, but is worshipping these figures what they had intended for us? Did Christ want you to worship him or follow him?

I think the biggest fault of every religion is their unwillingness to accept change. Admittedly, there is a certain sense of security found in knowing that your beliefs never have to change because they come from a book you believe was written by “God”. But what of the message inside the book? “God comes from within” is usually the most important message. If God comes from within, then worshipping the book is avoiding God.

At no point will I say that reading any of these books is a waste of time. In fact, I highly recommend reading them and enjoying the symbolism and lessons they are meant to convey. What I’m saying is that the Book is a message from God, but only one message. To worship one thing as the “only source of God’s Word” is limiting both your own growth and your idea of God. Think about it, God is everything, why would it only communicate through a book? Wouldn’t there be better ways?

Dejavu, Coincidence, Insight, Dreams, Imagination, Intuition…these are the messages from God. God is everything…repeat this and try to take it seriously. Everything is a lot of things…thoughts, sounds, objects, feelings, emotions. God, like the Holy Books, is not meant to be worshipped; it is meant to be appreciated. God is the thing that allows us to exist, it is our own consciousness, it is our own will to be. You are God.
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So why does religion still exist if, in truth, it has nothing to do with being with God? Because it is an easy out…an escape from responsibility. Remember, if you believe God is only in a church or in a book, then it’s not around when you are doing the things you don’t want god to see. Basically, the church offers justification…it offers you the excuse that you are a sinner and therefore below God. But if God is within you…are you really below God, or are you just not taking responsibility?

The Heaven that you so crave is not in a Book, it is in you.

Do not worship those who have gone before you to “God”, just know that they were preparing the road for you

Throughout my entire life I have questioned who I am. True, there were times when I was absolutely convinced I knew who I was, only to find that person changing into something else. There were times when I decided I wanted to be something, tried my best to play the role, only to find myself faced with the same question….Who am I? As I noticed this question more, I began to notice my own reactions to this question. Anger, confusion, sadness, fidgeting, smoking, drinking, dependence on others for support, and even the media were scapegoats. When all is said and done, the only person who can answer the question is yourself…so, I decided it was worth answering. Unfortunately, trying to find yourself is a lot different from being yourself. It seems that most of my reactions, thoughts, and even impulses were based on experiences I had gone through before. It occurred to me here that even basing myself on my past is an escape…the question is not “Where have I been?”, the question is “Who am I?”. The problem with any question is that it requires an answer….but every answer is a label, an idea….to say I am one thing implies that I am not another. I have the capacity for choice, which also gives me the capacity for endless change…so I cannot be simply one thing, I can only be described as potentially everything. And then again comes the question…What is this thing I am that can be anything? If it can “be” anything, then it’s not actually “anything” but rather “nothing”. That sounded kind of frightening, so I thought it out a bit more. “Nothing” does not exist…even “nothing” is made of something, otherwise it wouldn’t be describable. It seems to make a complete circle, ending in nowhere…nothing is the same as anything?

This circle is the most frustrating thing about the search for myself…always I want to answer a question, only to find that asking the question is simply avoiding the answer I already have.

This is very much like the question “What do you know is real?”. You can point to things, describe things, and even tell a story…but the fact is that these things are only real in My mind…dreaming seems absolutely real, and when I’m dreaming it is real. So what then is the difference between dreaming and being awake if the mind is what makes things real? Once again though we are led back to our original point…what is the mind that “makes things real?” If it cannot be described, you are simply left with one answer….you. Not your idea of what “you” are, but this infinitely adaptable and free “consciousness” that is the very center of the “thought tornado”. You are the thing that creates thought itself.
Right here is where I decided to ask another question…If I am the thing that creates thought, what am I like when I’m not thinking? Sounds a little counter-evolutionary, doesn’t it? Again though, thinking is essentially the same as doubting…if I’m thinking about it, I’m doubting I already know it…and if thought and reality are created by My mind, then I absolutely Must know exactly when I need to know all the time. Right? Sounded good enough to me…

It came as very little surprise to me when I discovered that thinking about not thinking is a lot easier to accomplish than actually stopping thought. It seems almost like a river of infinitely random perceptions…suddenly I’m thinking about the past, suddenly I’m self conscious, suddenly I’m planning for the future hopefully. So who am I? I have the right to choose…I have this right by my ability to choose. Can I not then choose not to participate? Can I not simply choose to stop doubting? Can I choose to ignore thought and just be present? The answer was no, you cannot ignore thought or it will eventually overwhelm you. If everything, including thought, is the product of My mind, then it would be foolish to try to ignore myself. So how do I cope with this endless maelstrom that is my mind?

To answer this question, I had to first figure out what my mind really is, and more importantly how it works. Now think about this, all of reality is in your mind…your mind being this “nothingness” that can be anything. It’s funny, but even “science” admits that all matter, broken down far enough is that Same Matter and is in fact, 99% empty space. This one is a little hard to grasp, but basically what I’m saying is that the computer screen your reading on right now is 99% empty space…it’s not made of anything substantial. Go ahead, touch the screen, it seems very real, doesn’t it? It’s solid, the shape doesn’t change, and you can say it’s “real”. But is it?

A paradox is the biggest and most irritating thought process in the world. But when it comes down to it, that is what reality is…it’s a paradox. And here is why. The universe, time, space, and an infinite amount of things exist in reality….but without you here to perceive reality, would it exist? You cannot use another person or event to answer this because the fact is that you don’t know…all you are sure of is that You exist. You who makes choices, You who perceives reality, and You who can be anything.

Religion and Spirituality have a concept that describes an “All powerful Entity that embodies everything” called God. I say that God is a concept because once again it is a Label, and a Label always has an “idea of what the thing is” when it could be anything at all. Though I do not believe in a pleasant looking grey haired old man in the clouds, I do have to question the validity of the concept. What would it mean to be “All powerful and have the capacity for anything?” What would I do if I were God?

I would do everything…But “doing” implies having “something” to do. I would have to “create” something to do and even a body to do it in. But as God I would be “everything”, how can I “be in” something when it’s in me? Duality…that’s the key. If there are always 2 perceptions of one thing, than I have choice between one or the other. Poof, just like that, Duality/Creation was born. Light, Dark, Hard, Soft, Living, Dead, The Future and The Past…all of it linked together as two perceptions of the same one thing. Now God could be “one thing” in “something else” because it could perceive itself as one half of the same thing. Of course God would want to experience every different form possible….spider, cat, human, tree, rock, lizard, etc….everything. After all, God is Eternal….that’s a long time to kill.

Here’s a good question for God…would you forget your god if you could? You might ask yourself, “why would God want to forget itself?” Think about it…God is one thing. The only thing. That also means that God is alone and always will be. Of course, God having Eternity, even this question would be answered. Because all things are possible to God, all things are reality as well. So there are in fact, realities where God has absolutely convinced itself that it is not God.

So, who am I then who can create a concept called “God?” If all things are in my mind, then surely even God is a creation of my own idea and design. So if even God is my creation, I have to ask myself again…who am I? Am I God? Millions of thoughts and defences pop into my head, all of them screaming like a legion of angry demons that this cannot be true…doubts, fears, accusation of arrogance, and especially thoughts of unworthiness clamour before me. However, I am not my thoughts, I am that which chooses. I can choose to believe I have the right. I can cast out these “demon thoughts” by simply seeing them for what they are….necessary creations of duality.

So the question finally changes….it is no longer “Who am I?” It is “Am I willing to admit who I am?”

I have often said that Duality is the very foundation of Creation. I say this because the concept of Duality simply means that one thing must have something else to compare itself to, otherwise there would be only one thing (”everything”). This may seem fairly obvious, but the actual depths of this insight are vital to understanding both yourself and reality.

Duality plays into everything…
Physically: Light/Dark, Soft/Hard, Visible/Invisible, Real/Unreal, Awake/Asleep, Living/Dead, Quiet/Loud, Past/The Future, etc.
Mentally: Anger/Love, Fear/Faith, Greed/Generosity, Wisdom/Foolishness, Sadness/Joy, Understanding/Confusion, etc.

The most important thing to remember is not “why duality exists” but rather that it does exist. You could question this, even go into great thought about each of the things that I have listed. You could delve into memory, or even read a book to validate this. Realize though, no matter how much you want to doubt that this is true…it will still remain true.

Duality, however, is not the only reason I am writing this. I am writing this as an attempt to understand the origin of this thing we call “Heaven” and “Hell”. Modern religion would state that Heaven and Hell are destinations after death. The pearly white gates in the clouds and the eternity of pain in the Lake of Fire (nice imagery, eh?)

Ignoring the assumptions of others, what then is Heaven and Hell? Where are these places? The answer lies in Duality.

Heaven and Hell are simply two sides of the same thing. The very concept of “God” is that God is everything…and therefore one thing. Putting this together, Heaven and Hell are just perception of God. To explain this a little better, let’s look at what we think Heaven and Hell are like.

Hell : Pain, Torture, Sorrow, Guilt, Punishment for “Sins”
Heaven : Peace, Love, Contentment, and Safety

Basically, Hell is reality without the presence of “God”, where Heaven is simply reality in complete connection to “God”.

Remembering who you are (see “A question worth asking…”), does this not mean that Heaven and Hell are entirely dependant on how you view reality? Everything that exists, exists in your mind…you have infinite freedom to view reality however you please. This alone gives you the keys to Heaven or Hell. Duality comes into play again here. As I mentioned in another writing, in Duality you can either move away from something or towards something..The argument could be made that you can go “sideways” but that would still mean moving “towards” one direction or “away” from another.

Knowing that you are “God”, this means that Heaven and Hell are perceptions of yourself. This also means that Heaven and Hell are not destinations after death…they are, in fact, right here and readily available to us (as everything else is)

To be yourself is Heaven, To attempt to be something else is Hell.

The answer “There is no question” is an absolute kick in the teeth to us “seekers of truth”. In honesty, I am unwilling to let go of the self-perception that I am a “spiritual person” or even “seeking god”. Why? Because it makes me feel better about myself. Is this a valid reason? Truly, as a free and infinitely adaptable consciousness, do I have any legitimate reason to need to feel better about myself? How much better does it get?

So why do I hold onto to these labels? Why do I feel they are necessary to my existence? Because if I continue to hold onto them, I never have to deal with that brick wall that is “there is no question.” That’s it…when it boils down to it, all my beliefs, fears, judgments, and reactions are based on this avoidance. I want those labels…they are “important”.

But really, all a label has ever done is describe something. If an infinite range of perception is available, then a label is simply trapping us in the perception of its creator, not our own. The point is that any thing could be perceived in any way, to define that thing is to attempt to control change. We attempt to control our surroundings, our language, our community, our thoughts, our memories, our belief system, and even our own free will. All this simply to avoid an answer.

So why do I try to control reality? Because it is a distraction. If I am busy participating in the “outside world”, I continue to hold onto the perception that I am separate from reality. Every single belief or fear that I have exists for the simple reason that I do not want to let them go. Ultimately, the only reason that I believe I am separate from reality is because I choose to believe it. If all perceptions are open to us, why then is it so hard to see this one? What is it about Unity that makes us run back to Duality?

Responsibility. Admitting that all of reality is contained in a single “consciousness”(I have to use a word here even though it doesn’t really apply to an indescribable thing. This is the unfortunate limitation of language) is simple…in fact, we whole-heartedly enjoy believing in “God” because if there was a such thing as “God” then It would be responsible for how things are going.

But to admit that all of reality exists only in your consciousness means that you can no longer pass the buck. Basically it means that the things I hold onto are made real by my attention to them.

It is very hard to admit that everything that exists, exists because God wants it to. It’s harder when You are God.

And Boom! Just like that the thoughts come whirling in…at the forefront of the charge is Judgement.

“But there are horrible things and people in the world, I would never do those things.” –> Yes, I would if I were in the right circumstances and particular frame of mind. Basically if I was that person, that is exactly what I would do. Life is a long and infinitely complex journey of choice after choice after choice….each moment of your reality is a turning point. If perception is the map, and an infinite amount of perceptions exist, then it is our choices that decide where our journey takes us.

Boom! More atrocities turn up…murder, rape, war, disease, starvation!

“I would never do these things!” –> Once again, yes I probably would. But before casting judgement on these things, remember Duality. Horrible is the opposite of Wonderful…without one, there would be no other. This is truly hard to admit, but everything is happening so that I can experience. Not experience “something” in particular…but to experience period.

Without duality there is no experience. There is simple Unity.

So how do I avoid the answer? Simple…stay clear of these 3 habits.

Relaxing
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/ The Moment —– Paying Attention

To be honest, these 3 things actually mean the same thing. One cannot be done without the other 2.

Example : Relaxing implies letting go of control. This leads to letting go of thought. Without thought we have unbiased experience. This experience is not distracted by the workings of the mind because you are relaxed…therefore you are paying attention. In paying attention you abandon Time…leading you to The Moment.

Why ask “Why?” Because the questions very existence implies I do not know the answer.

If you want to avoid the Answer…just keep asking questions. For every question you create, a justifiable reason to escape responsibility is born.